by Sue Klebold
Penguin Random House
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Description: On April 20, 1999, Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold walked into Columbine High School in Littleton, Colorado. Over the course of minutes, they would kill twelve students and a teacher and wound twenty-four others before taking their own lives.
For the last sixteen years, Sue Klebold, Dylan’s mother, has lived with the indescribable grief and shame of that day. How could her child, the promising young man she had loved and raised, be responsible for such horror? And how, as his mother, had she not known something was wrong? Were there subtle signs she had missed? What, if anything, could she have done differently?
These are questions that Klebold has grappled with every day since the Columbine tragedy. In A Mother’s Reckoning, she chronicles with unflinching honesty her journey as a mother trying to come to terms with the incomprehensible. In the hope that the insights and understanding she has gained may help other families recognize when a child is in distress, she tells her story in full, drawing upon her personal journals, the videos and writings that Dylan left behind, and on countless interviews with mental health experts.
The Good Stuff
- I wasn't looking forward to cracking this one open as the subject matter is disturbing and it hits close to home as I have a teen boy with special needs and I worry about how he will navigate this difficult time in his life
- Really made me think about my parenting skills - I think I am doing all the right things and what if it isn't enough
- Won't lie my first thought during Columbine was what kind of parents did these kids have. I judged them without knowing the situation. I also thought the two boys were psychopathic monsters who should have suffered more
- It took a lot of courage for this women to open up her heart and soul to help us try to understand. I can only imagine the criticism she must have faced and I thank her for this
- This one will stay with me for the rest of my life. And I want to thank her for this as I will be watching my boys even more carefully
- I cannot begin to imagine the horrors this mom has had to live with and I admire her courage to speak out and try to help others in need
- Heart breaking and extremely difficult to read but worth it
- Extremely thought provoking. Will be discussing this with a lot of people, especially my son
- Author profits from the book will be donated to research and to charitable foundations focusing on mental health issues
The Not So Good Stuff
- I cried myself to sleep during the duration of reading this book
- I let one of my daycare kids go as he is a bit troubled and I am scared that I am not strong enough to help him mentally
- My son is a little sick of me wanting to talk to him all the time. There has been some serious eye rolling and long sighs from him
- I suffer from depression and anxiety (mild) and this book has increased my anxiety 500 per cent. I love my two boys more than anything in the world and it sickens me and makes me nervous that with all my faults I may damage them -
“The ultimate message of this book is terrifying: you may not know your own children, and, worse yet, your children may be unknowable to you. The stranger you fear may be your own son or daughter.”
"While every other mother in Littleton was praying that her child was safe, I had to pray that mine would die before he hurt anyone else."
"In the aftermath of Columbine, the world’s judgment was understandably swift: Dylan was a monster. But that conclusion was also misleading, because it tied up too neatly a far more confounding reality. Like all mythologies, this belief that Dylan was a monster served a deeper purpose: people needed to believe they would recognize evil in their midst. Monsters are unmistakable; you would know a monster if you saw one, wouldn’t you? If Dylan was a fiend whose heedless parents had permitted their disturbed, raging teen to amass a weapons cache right under their noses, then the tragedy—horrible as it was—had no relevance to ordinary moms and dads in their own living rooms, their own children tucked snugly into soft beds upstairs."
I read this one as Captain Awesome recommended it and I always take his suggestions. This time I won't lie, I almost didn't pick it up, as this is really out of my comfort zone. Thanks Cammy for convincing me to pick it up. You haven't steered me wrong yet.